Well, for today's post i decided not to update about what happened for the past the few days. Despite knowing that i have quite a number of pictures to upload, i chose to save it for the next post. Basically, im gonna pour everything out here and i hope no one will get offended.

8 months ago, i ended my 3 years relationship with the ex. Im determined that i have moved on with my new life now, without the ex and am thankful to be attached with my current boyfriend. Sadly, people surrounding me cannot put my mind at ease and keep on talking, reminiscing about my past love with the ex. I must admit, we used to be known as lovebirds among our friends but sometimes, you just have to let things go for your own good. I cant blamed them. Maybe, we grew up together; the ex, my friends and myself. We shared the same circle of friends and i cant get rid of it, that's the matter of fact. He was the caused of everything and he chose to end it in such a heavyhearted way. It was never easy to move on with life, really. Moreover, he was my first love. Life was like a hell bitch back then but i pulled it through with my ownself. I was kept in the dark with bittersweet memories i had with him, i suffered. I deceived everyone by putting a brave front. I had countless of contacts in my list. Turned myself from a decent girl to an alcoholic bitch. I hit the club, weekly. Just to get over this severe heartaches.

Today, i escaped this misery. I opened a brand new life episode with a clean record. I let bygones be bygones. Eventhough he has done such a tremendous damaged to me, i didnt hold any grudge on him. I just hope that my friends and people surrounding me, will understand the pain that ive went through and be happy with whom im with now. Ill appreciate if they put a fullstop to it and respect my boyfriend by not bringing up the past love story. I have faith in Razmin. I used to share the same thoughts with the rest. I thought that my love with the ex will last till marriage but that was just a thought. Unfortunately, we didnt and went separate ways for almost 9 months. I believed god has a better plan for the both of us. I had enough, putting up with all his shit, i had enough, forgiving him endlessly, i had enough of every single thing. I need love, i need to feel being appreciated. Regardless of that short duration, i believe Razmin gonna treat me better. Even if he's not, im still thankful to get the chance to be in love with him. In love, you gotta have a clean heart and be sincere. Im still hoping the best for the ex and always want him to be a good man not for me but for his future love. Despite me being ill-treated by him, he used to be there for me, he did sacrificed for me. That is that.

Dearest Razmin. Dont be doubtful. You have my heart now and ill love you at my best. I dont care what they say, im gonna be with you.